have to move

i don't know
i don't know
i don't remember what i was like
when i didn't love you.
i'm without you,
it's what i do-
exist independently
and resent how independent
i am.
you're away and i wonder
do you still think
about me everyday?
i cannot speak to you
i started to send messages
but it's falling through
the floor i'm standing on
it's caving, darlin, and i
have to move.
but i don't know
i don't know
i don't remember who i was
before i met you.